It has been a while since my last post - so let's catch up! After my last post we completed IUI #4, which also failed. I wasn't as hormonal that month and I think that the injections had a lot to do with it. (I've heard they don't make you as crazy as clomid) During this cycle my nurses mentioned some options to me if IUI #4 was unsuccessful. Option number one was that I could be referred to an RE and begin further treatment with them or I could have an exploratory laparoscopic surgery done to check for any abnormalities with my reproductive organs, such as scaring or endometriosis. I opted for the surgery because I figured if I was referred to an RE that the surgery would be the first thing they would do anyways and why not do it with my doctor that I already know and absolutely love? My lapy was done almost two weeks ago now and while under anesthesia my doctor also went ahead and completed another dye test on my tubes. The lapy showed that I did indeed have some mild endometriosis that she burned out, but everything else along with my tubes were normal. Praise Jesus! We are praying that this is just another step in the right direction and that maybe, just maybe burning out that endometriosis will help us conceive. I go for my follow up appointment to make sure everything is healing properly on Thursday. I should also begin another cycle this week, so we'll start medications back up then, since I had to skip a cycle to do the lapy.
Tuesday, September 27, 2016
IUI attempt #3 was a failure. My emotions have been running wild the past couple of weeks and I have been beyond hormonal this time around. I try to stay positive, but sometimes you just have those down right ugly days. I've had quite a few of those this past week. Its that time in the cycle of emotions, at the beginning of another cycle that you try to have hope again and say "We can do this." and We can get through this.". This cycle we are starting some new medication. We have started 50 mg of Clomid and will take that for a total of 5 days and will begin follistim injections on the 6th day and complete those each day until I ovulate. We may also do another IUI this cycle, but I haven't quite made that decision yet. Just praying for peace this cycle and for that baby we know the Lord has planned for us.
Thursday, September 1, 2016
I was told by my nurse that my last cycle was "perfect". Hmm.. perfect for me would have meant that I was pregnant, but I'm not. However, on a positive note my estrogen and progesterone were the best they've been since I started medication a year ago. I was also the most hormonal, crying mess of a woman too. There were days where I could have bitten someone's head off for no reason and other days where I cried off and on all day. Again, for no reason. I know my husband must have thought I hitched a ride on the crazy train. Because my levels were so good on the 150 mg of clomid, we are trying it one more cycle. Next week we will hopefully have another IUI done, in hopes that we will get pregnant with our take home baby. If not, I will move on to more extensive drugs and exploratory laparoscopic surgery. Praying those won't be needed and our dreams of being parents become our reality.
"Thy will be done."
"Thy will be done."
Thursday, August 4, 2016
It has officially been 2 years since our ttc journey began. Two years of emotions that I can't begin to comprehend. Since my miscarriage in April, my husband and I decided to take the Summer to just focus on us. It has been exactly what we needed, to just take a step back and stop analyzing every detail of every month. There has still been plenty of grieving, and no doubt there will be more of that to come as what would have been our due date approaches. We have faith in God's plan for our life and know that He has nothing but the best planned for us. Tomorrow I will begin another round of clomid, increasing my dosage to 150 mg. Lord help my husband! I am anxious to begin this journey again and pray that we will get to meet that sweet baby that God has planned for us soon!
I have prayed earnestly for peace. Peace to overcome my heartache from my previous miscarriage, but also peace of mind for the future. Another miscarriage is a fear of mine that I am sure will be at the forefront of my mind when I get pregnant again. I pray that Jesus takes control of that fear and anxiety and replaces it with trust and hope. Our faith in the Lord has only continued to grow and we truly believe that Jesus has great things in store for us!
Monday, June 27, 2016
Love this analogy! So true. We can feel happy for you and sad for ourselves.
This blog post is a must read!!
This blog post is a must read!!
Friday, May 20, 2016
Yesterday was my two week follow up since the d&c. Everything seemed to go good, but I still left the doctor's office emotionally aggravated. We were told to wait a couple of cycles before trying again, and to be honest I could use the break. This whole year has been mentally and physically exhausting to say the least and I just want to enjoy the summer with my husband. August will be 2 years that we've been on this TTC journey, so to have a couple of months to not over analyze fertile days, endlessly having blood drawn, partaking in hormone medications, countless trips to Birmingham for ultrasounds, and scheduled sex will feel like a breeze of fresh air. I could use some of that fresh air. We still long for that baby that we get to bring home one day but the Lord has given me a peace that only He can. I know our family will grow according to his plan, so for now I am resting in the fact that God has got this under control.